its not helping

December 15, 2014

it feels like every movement
has to be painfully slow and purposeful
concentrate on this one thing
even to the pressing of the g or e or s
there it goes
press down on the key and the letter appears on the screen
a little faster now
no, don’t look cause it will all be blurry
shifting to the edge of your vision
out of focus
then snapping back
fuzzy letters giving you vertigo
slow down

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3 Responses to “its not helping”

  1. Lindsey Says:

    This reminds me of what the Buddhists say about being present in every moment… a painful, woozy sort of enlightenment. May you find some rest this season, my friend.

    • Shawn Says:

      its more like not being able to be present in any moment
      not being able to make sense of whats happening
      or remember or learn or do whatever is supposed…

      rest and peace to you as well.

  2. Gail Brown Says:

    I don’t like these side effects. Is it doing anything for the depression besides making you oblivious to what is around you?


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