oh that love.

March 12, 2014

you know that love?
it fills up and then overflows
almost overwhelms
where you have to jump up
and the back of your calves hit your chair
and it tumbles to the floor.
even at the end of the day
where you’ve spent everything
and all thats left is the depression
or exhaustion, or breathing, or nothing;
you think in circles of sickness
of work and time and duty and words and infection,
virus that has stolen your voice
a day like sepsis, a swollen mind, aching hands…
but what is that to them
now they are leaving you to sleep
their needs turning to their dreams
demanding Peter Pan and mermaids and fairies and Jesus,
and you’re alone with your ebbing obligation
and collapse
and then…
kisses in their hair
whispered blessings
with an intensity that they can’t hear
and may never fully understand,
these horribly beautiful children
my babies, i love you.
God bless you with
good sleep, good dreams, and a good day tomorrow.


4 Responses to “oh that love.”

  1. Ryan Roling Says:

    I know. And I love it.

  2. Jimmy Says:

    You see – that’s the other side of depression – the intense love. And you are incredible at expressing that love.

  3. Marnie Ferree Says:

    Beautiful Shawn!

  4. Gail Brown Says:

    Your love for them is beautiful.

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